2:09pm.. scratch the rest of the day.. i've had a really weird twisted piece of mind melting happen.. i'm fine.
i am.. i'm fine! i have been so worried.. oh god i'm laughing as i type, so worried about not being fine. i didn't want to be fine. i didn't.. maybe tomrrow i'll feel it again but whatever, i'm going to try and hold onto this because do you know what..
i'm fine..
i don't need you. i am laughing so much it hurts, what the hell has been WRONG with me i love you but hell YOU'RE NOT HERE! and i'm alive, i'm healthy, HEALTHIER even.. i am really well.. aside from this depression that's swamped me like a ridiculous cloud for the last two months. i. am. fine!!
oh god i feel a massive sense of relief because you know what? you're SO not worth it!
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